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Every Day is A New Day

New day.. New office location.. New Seat.. So many new things happened to me before this new year comes. Newness always brings enthusiasm and excitement. Hope this New Year also comes with hand full of surprises as Every Day is a New Day indeed..!!!

12 Most Famous Love Stories of All Time

When: 31 BC Where: Rome and Egypt What’s So Special about Their Love: These two had a love so strong, war was waged against them to break them up. When Mark Antony left his wife, Octavia, for the mesmerizing Cleopatra, Octavia’s brother Octavian brought the army of Rome to destroy them. These two lovers were so entranced with each other that they committed suicide rather than be apart- the ultimate Romeo and Juliet true love story.

Mahatma`s Teachings

I like both the movies MunnaBhai MBBS and Lage Raho MunnaBhai. I dont know about the Gandhi`s political decisions but I believe in his teachings to the nation.

Universal Truth about Boys............lolz!!

Now i truly admit, Google is very very very smart......

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Thursday, October 20, 2011

When Your Heart & Mind Disagree

You are sitting with your cell phone staring at a text message you wrote to your ex hours ago. You debate whether to send it or not. You stare at your phone while your mind tells you to have more respect for yourself. You logically understand that sending the message is not going to make the situation any better – nor will it heal your pain. Then your heart enters the scene and overpowers your mind. Your heart says, “Go ahead, send it, you will feel better…temporarily at least.”

The scenario above represents one example of a misalignment between your heart and your mind that is a common occurrence after a break up. Every decision you make is determined by a combination of your logic and emotion. If these different elements that make you who you are happen to conflict, you will understandably feel conflicted and make decisions that reflect this turmoil.

Your mind says, “I deserve more – this relationship is not right.”
Your heart says, “Stay, it will work out.”

Your heart says, “This relationship is everything I need.”
Your mind says, “There are red flags here that I shouldn’t ignore.”

Your mind says, “I am going to be okay. In fact, before long, I’m going to feel like myself.”
Your heart says, “The pain is excruciating, I don’t think I will ever feel at peace again.”

Losing a love is often like losing two people – your love and your best friend. When something newsworthy happens in your life, you may still instinctively think to call or email your ex to share the news. When you realize that you no longer have that privilege, the pain seeps in. The question then becomes – can or should you be friends with your ex after the break up? 

Thursday, October 13, 2011

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Wednesday, October 12, 2011

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Thursday, September 29, 2011

My Saving Strategies - Religare GOLD

I take a common sense approach to spending where I try to divide my needs and desires.
Now lets play a game and see how frugal you are compared to me:

Compare your answers with mine:

1. Do you NEED to go the theatres to watch the latest blockbuster? Or can you wait until it comes out on DVD to rent?

    I enjoy the cinemas but I have disciplined myself to only go once every few months (or longer). I rent movies most of the time.

2. Do you NEED to go out for supper at a fancy restaurant? Or can you cook your supper at home?

    I go out to eat on special occasions [more often if someone else is paying ;)], however, most of the time I just cook at home. Cooking at home is cheaper (usually healthier too) than eating out at any restaurant, even Mc Donalds.

There you have it. That’s just a few examples on how I can save on my monthly bills.
Now saved money can be used to buy GOLD coin which is safe investment these days.

I am planning to buy myself 2 gold coins in coming Dhanteras.

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Success is a journey, not a destination

Success is the progressive realization of a worthy goal. 

Earl Nightingale

Let's look at these definitions carefully.

"Progressive" means that success is a journey, not a destination. We never arrive. After we reach one goal, we go on to the next and the next and the next.

"Realization" means it is an experience. Outside forces cannot make me feel successful. I have to feel it within myself. It is internal not external.

"Worthy" refers to our value system. Which way are we heading? Positive or negative? Worthiness determines the quality of the journey. That is what gives meaning and fulfillment. Success without fulfillment is empty. Why?

"Goals" are important. Because they give us a sense of direction. Success does not mean being accepted by everyone.

There are some groups I would not want to be accepted by, out of choice. I would rather be criticized by fools than appreciated by unsavory characters. I define success as a manifestation of good luck that results from inspiration, aspiration, desperation and perspiration; generally in that sequence. Success and happiness go hand in hand.

Success is getting what you want and happiness is wanting what you get!

Monday, September 12, 2011

Awww.. m growing old...!!

Birthday is the day on which you realize that all of a sudden you expect something.. you want something.. and you dreamt of hell lot of things from your life. On the same time you got to know that so less time left to accomplish goals set years ago.

Its true that life is like a river and we have to float as per the flow but if this journey with myself of life has no direction then there will be no destination and we will be like "Distance travelled unlimited but final Displacement Zero" as we will reach nowhere.

So from my wish list i picked up small little cute gift and presented myself a new look on my birthday.
Got my hair smoothing done finally. (Rebonded)

Happy Birthday to me ;-)

Sunday, July 17, 2011

39. Story of Upamanyu (Shiv Puran)

The sage Vyaghrapada had a son named Upamanyu. When he was small, he wanted some milk from his mother. But he was not at all happy with the milk that his mother gave him. He complained that it did not taste like milk at all.

Naturally, said his mother. I did not give you milk. How can we afford milk? We are not rich. I powdered some rice and mixed it with water. That is what I gave to you as milk. Unfortunately, you have tasted milk in your uncle's house and you could make out the difference.

Upamanyu's mother began to cry. But Upamanyu consoled his mother. Don't cry, please, he said. I will pray to Shiva and get milk for myself.

His mother taught him the mantra that was to be used for praying to Shiva. She also taught him another mantra which would summon up a terrible divine weapon named aghorastra. This was just in case there was any danger.

Upamanyu went to the Himalayas and started to meditate. He lived only on air and chanted the incantation that his mother had taught him. He prayed in front of an earthen linga. Demons came to disturb his meditation, but Upamanyu paid no attention to them. Shiva himself was impressed by Upamanyu's difficult tapasya. But he thought that he would test Upamanyu first.

He arrived in front of Upamanyu in the disguise of Indra and asked, Upamanyu, what are you doing?

I am blessed that the king of the gods has arrived before me, replied Upamanu. I am praying to Shiva.

Shiva! Why pray to that useless fellow? asked Shiva.

Upamanu could not stand this insult to Shiva. He summoned up aghorastra by means of the mantra and let it loose at the person he thought was Indra. Shiva then manifested himself in his own form and aghorastra was repelled by Nadi, who had also turned up. Shiva himself taught Upamanu all sorts of sacred knowledge, and arrangements were made so that Upamanyu need never suffer from a lack of milk.

Krishna once came to meet the sage Upamanyu, many years after the milk incident.

Upamanyu taught Krishna the words of wisdom that he learned from Shiva; he also taught Krishna to pray to Shiva. It was by praying to Shiva that Krishna obtained his son Samba. For sixteen months Krishna had to pray before Shiva appeared, to grant the boon regarding the son. Parvati also granted Krishna several boons.

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

34. Story of The Ashes (Shiv Puran)

Parvati said, I understand about the moon now. But why do you always smear ashes on your body? What is the reason for that?

Shiva told her the story.

There used to be a brahmana who was descended from the great sage Bhrigu. This brahmana began a very difficult tapasya. The tremendous heat of the summer made no difference to him. Nor was he disturbed by the downpour of the monsoon. He was only interested in meditating. When he felt hungry, he used to ask the bears, the deer, the lions and the jackals to fetch him some fruits. The wild beasts had lost all fear of him, they served him instead. Later on, the brahmana gave up eating fruits also. He ate only green leaves. And because leaves are called parna, the brahmana came to be known as Parnada. He performed tapasya for many years.

One day, Parnada was cutting some grass and his scythe slipped and sliced off his middle finger. Parnada was amazed to find that no blood issued from the severed joint. Instead, a sap like that which issues from plants came out. Parnada's vanity knew no bounds. He realized that his was due to the fact that he had been living on green leaves for such long time. Parnada began to jump with delight.

Shiva decided that Parnada needed to be taught a lesson. He disguised himself as a brahmana and arrived before Parnada.

Why are you so happy? asked Shiva.

Can't you see? replied Parnada. My tapasya has been so successful that my blood has become like the sap of plants.

This sort of vantiy destroys the fruits of all tapasya, said Shiva. What have you got to be so proud about? Your blood has only turned into the sap of plants. What happens when you burn plants? They become ashes. I myself have performed so much tapasya that my blood has becomes ashes.

Shiva sliced off his middle finger and ashes came out of it. Parnada was impressed. He realized that there was nothing that he could be proud about; here was a far greater hermit than he. He asked Shiva who he was and Shiva then displayed his true form to Parnada.

Ever since that day, there have always been ashes on Shiva's body.

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

7. Story of The Marriage (Shiv Puran)

Shiva called the seven great sages (saptarshis) and asked them to go to Himalaya as his messengers. The message was that he wished to marry Himalaya's daughter Parvati. Himalaya was delighted to see the sages and even more delighted to learn that Shiva wanted to marry Parvati. A date was fixed for the marriage.

The day of the marriage dawned. Gandharvas (singers of heaven) sang and apsara (dancers of heaven) danced. All the gods came to Kailasa to accompany Shiva on the procession. Himalaya had also got ready. He had built many gates in front of his house and had placed flags on them. The beauty of Himalaya's residence at that time is impossible to describe. When the procession arrived at the residence, Parvati's mother Menaka rushed out.

Let me see Shiva, she exclaimed. Let me see my son-in-law. My daughter Parvati has performed tapasya to obtain Shiva as a husband. He must be exceedingly handsome.

The first person Menaka saw was Vishvavasu, the king of the gandharvas. Vishvavasu was very handsome and, at first, Menaka thought that this was Shiva. But when she was told that this was only a singer who entertained Shiva, she thought that Shiva would be more handsome. Then her eyes fell down on the handsome Kubera, the god of wealth, and she thought that this had to be Shiva. Kubera was more attractive than Vishvavasu. But Menaka was told that this was not Shiva either. Then came Varuna, more attractive than Kubera. But this was not Menaka's son-in-law. Nor was her son-in-law the great god Yama, handsomer than Varuna. The handsome gods Indra, Surya and Chandra passed by. But Narada told Menaka that these were not Shiva, they were simply Shiva's servants.

Menaka's joy knew no bounds. If these were the servants, what was the master going to be like? She mistook Brahma, Vishnu and Brihaspati for Shiva, and each time Narada told her that she was wrong. Where then was Shiva? Finally Shiva came and Narada pointed him out to Menaka. At the sight of her son-in-law, Menaka fell unconscious.

Shiva was surrounded by ghosts on all sides. The faces were fierce, their complexions were dark and they made a tremendous racket. Shiva himself rode on bull. He had three eyes, five faces and ten arms. He was smeared with ashes and the moon adorned his forehead. He was dressed in a tiger's skin and a garland of skulls hung around his neck. No wonder Menaka fainted.

When she recovered, she began to lament. She scolded Himalaya, Narada and Parvati for her misfortune. Brahma, the other gods, and the sages tried to pacify Menaka. But to no avail.

I will not permit my daughter to be married to Shiva, Menaka said. I will give her poison instead. I will throw her into a well and kill her. I will chop her up into pieces with a weapon. I will hurl her into the sea. I will kill myself. I will get Parvati married to someone else. Not to Shiva. Parvit resolved, I shall not marry anyone other than Shiva. Is a jackal a fit replacement for a lion?

Vishnu then tried to pacify Menaka. But this did not succeed either. Fianlly Narada asked Shiva to display his beautiful form and Shiva obliged. This form is exhibited only to those who are very faithful to Shiva. Everyone was charmed by this beautiful form, even Menaka. His body shone like a thousand suns and a crown sparkled on his head. His clothes glittered and the lustre of his jewels put the stars to shame.

Menaka begged forgiveness for her foolishness and now there were no further obstacles to the marriage. Under Brahma's supervision, the marriage ceremony took place and Shiva and Parvati returned to Kailasa.

Thursday, February 17, 2011

Site Diversion

After spending 10 long days of learning html coding since
i made my site on 8th of Feb.
Finally i decided that the easiest thing i can do is to divert my site
to my blog site which is this right now.
So if you open >>>
you will see my blog page only. I did this because I don`t like that
"Site is Under Construction Section"

I tried dreamweaver too with the help of my cousin Vebby but all in vain.
Kat told me to first make complete website and then launch it.

Meanwhile Rat diverted it to get rid of this issue temporarily.
Now I can conentrate on blogging.

Ooo God.. In the complex world of coding.. I gonaa almost forget my wrtting ability.

Thank you Kanha for saving me..

Tuesday, February 8, 2011 - thanks to Big Rock

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Wednesday, June 9, 2010

Radha Krishna

Krishna was with all the devos in sabha. He started to vibrate and from his own body his shakti came out in the form of Radha. She was so beautiful, and Krishna was so shyam. Someone made fun of their couple. Radha got angry and cursed him. That same person cursed Radha and said she will never be able to unite with Krishna (will not get married).

However, there is the story of Radha and Krishna getting married by Brahma in the forest.

Radha is Krishna's energy/shakti. He cannot live without her, and she cannot live without him. She is not a woman, nor a jiva. She is a part of Krishna. She did not take birth. She emerged from him. Literally, they are one. You cannot have an image of Krishna alone. Krishna alone is incomplete without his Radha.

In some descriptions, radha was actually a married woman. it was she who is said to indulge in an affair with krishna. even if it was not so, the relationship of radha and krishna were on a different plane, and they were actually the same being, just god in the form of man and woman. their love was pure and spiritual, and cannot be purified further by the bond of marriage.

Radha and Krishna are said to be one. Their love is eternal. What is marriage? Marriage is a sacrament (Sanskara), a rite enabling two individuals to start their journey in life together. In a Hindu wedding, the multiplicity of creation becomes possible when spirit (Purush) unites with matter (Prakritti). Krishna and Radha being one did not need the basis of marriage.

This is of course my point of view, from what i have read and gathered. I myself am totally in love with Lord Krishna.

Friday, April 16, 2010


I am still in a very contemplative mood.

I guess a personal loss makes us question a lot of things.
It makes us question what we are doing here on Earth?
What is the essence of life?
What is important to us?
What are our priorities?
And I am not sure that we ever get the answers.

But I value if you can suggest me by commenting on how should i deal with such situations and thank you for allowing me the time I needed to myself.

Thursday, March 4, 2010

kyunki mai naraaz hoon......

Mujhe bhi Choclate & Coco spa chahiye..
Ek joy ride chahiye apni city ki by my private jet..
I want an adventurous holiday on weekend to manesar..
& most essentially I want to get myself pampered like Princess..

If anybody can shower me all this luxuries then only I will come back in mood!!

Saturday, November 14, 2009

The Gentle Whisper

The young man had lost his job and didn't know which way to turn. So he went to see the old preacher. Pacing about the preacher's study, the young man ranted about his problem. Finally he clenched his fist and shouted, "I've begged God to say something to help me. Tell me, Preacher, why doesn't God answer?"
The old preacher, who sat across the room, spoke something in reply -- something so hushed it was indistinguishable.
The young man stepped across the room. "What did you say?" he asked.
The preacher repeated himself, but again in a tone as soft as a whisper.
So the young man moved closer until he was leaning on the preacher's chair.
"Sorry," he said. "I still didn't hear you."
With their heads bent together, the old preacher spoke once more.
"God sometimes whispers," he said, "so we will move closer to hear Him.."
This time the young man heard and he understood.
We all want God's voice to thunder through the air with the answer to our problem.
But God's is the still, small voice . . . the gentle whisper.
Perhaps there's a reason.
Nothing draws human focus quite like a whisper.
God's whisper means I must stop my ranting and move close to Him, until my head is bent together with His.
And then, as I listen, I will find my answer.
Better still, I find myself closer to God.

you keep on wishing thingswithout giving a real thoughtbetter guard your thinking, dear
for it might be delivered to your doorstep...

just be grateful for all the things
that is coming on your way
be it your job or something
just learn to smile and pray...

people and all the situations
sometimes are beyond control
disrupting our long-term plans
creating havoc on our lives...

always remember this
there is no coincidence
things are happening to us
because it is our hidden wish....

Umemployed Graduate

An unemployed graduate woke up one morning and checked his pocket. All he had left was $10.
He decided to use it to buy food and then wait for death as he was too proud to go begging.
He was frustrated as he could find no job, and nobody was ready to help him.
He bought food and as he sat down to eat, an old man and two little children came along and asked him to help them with food as they had not eaten for almost a week.
He looked at them.
They were so lean that he could see their bones coming out.
Their eyes had gone into the sockets.
With the last bit of compassion he had, he gave them the food.
The old man and children prayed that God would bless and prosper him and then gave him a very old coin.
The young graduate said to them 'you need the prayer more than I do'.
With no money, no job, no food, the young graduate went under the bridge to rest and wait for death.
As he was about to sleep, he saw an old newspaper on the ground.
He picked it up, and suddenly he saw an advertisement for people with old coins to come to a certain address.
He decided to go there with the old coin the old man gave him.
On getting to the place, he gave the proprietor the coin.
The proprietor screamed, brought out a big book and showed the young graduate a photograph.
This same old coin was worth 3 million dollars.
The young graduate was overjoyed as the proprietor gave him a bank draft for 3 million dollars within an hour.
He collected the Bank Draft and went insearch of the old man and little children.
By the time he got to where he left them eating, they had gone.
He asked the owner of the canteen if he knew them.
He said no but they left a note for you.
He quickly opened the note thinking it would lead him to find them.
This is what the note said: 'You gave us your all and we have rewarded you back with the coin,' signed God the Father, The Son and The Holy Ghost.

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Understanding Myself

What do i actually want has become the biggest question of my life which
I am facing these days.

"samajh samajh kai jo naa samjhe meri samajh mai wo nasamajh hai"

I am proving the phrase by doing the same mistake again & again & again.

People come & go after leaving their strong impression in life.
Attachment happens easily but detachment.. uff! It is the real scary thing
i always fear of.

Missing some one & holding onto the memories for so long is quite obvious.
You get habitual of talking to some1, seeing them, meeting them or going out
with them and one day you make an decision to separate..

But its not as simple as that.

But as they say time heals everything and everything happens for the reason.
I am hoping to get out of my old memories (all bad ones) and focus on myself now.

But hey wait.. this is what i am not clear about in this present state of mind.

I am having so much of expectations from myself only and I am the only one who
is not able to fulfill any.

I guess i need to understand myself by trying different things.
God knows where i will stick now and get addicted again..

Friday, January 30, 2009


I have started my journey of 2009 by joinning gym though, i m more inclined towards yoga.
I have also started reading book "Monk who sold his Ferrari " apart from my curriculum.

Actually this year i gonna b little selfish by concentrating on myself only.
I want to b i n shape.. complete my studies.. upgrade my skill.. grow professionally & emotionally and etc etc etc..

& most surprisingly till now its going on track.. lets c 4 how long ?

Monday, January 19, 2009

Self Realisation

Long-Long ago i started writting blog but since last few posts i just copy-pasted some selected articles & today after reading my old posts i realised that i didn`t do a justice to my blog.

I shouldn`t have misused my copy rights for selling an external source of information.
So along with my two new year resolutions ( One is to complete my studies at any cost by the end of this year & Second is to work on my looks, hairs & body ... aah!!) i m going to take it damn seriously coz of numerous stupid reasons lyk i just love to best utilise my office resources to enhance my creativiy.. geeks.... lolz!

On a serious note.. i need to vomit out all d frustrations & vows which was kept on getting concentrated last year.

I experienced the peaks & d lows just lyk sensex in 2008
but as said 2009 is a year of change i gotta find some sense of direction & meaning

I dont want to waste myself anymore & above all i dont want 2 cry & yell & feel lyk hell.

Thursday, July 31, 2008

Feeling Lost

I have been feeling pretty lost lately.
I do this when I need to turn off my feelings,
but usually they catch up with me pretty quick.

I've been having lots of problems in my life and it's been hard.
I really don't want anythg...
so turning off my feelings is the only way to make it through.
I am really trying not to argue in front of anyone,
and I try really hard not to cry in front of anyone too.
If I do cry, I tell that "It's okay to cry when you're sad
& I'm glad I have you to hug me." and then I smile.

I am more and more convinced though that
I deserve this life only. However, I don't think there is any other life for me.

There is one thing that I will stick to that "Nothing is for forever"
And, for right now, that's enough.
I have to find a way to be content with that.

I don't need to be happy. :-)
I don't think anyone does, to be honest.
Human are confusing, needy creatures.
It's their job to look out only for themselves.

I wish that at the end of the day, I could get a grade from someone on how
I spent that day. A+, B-, big fat F...whatever it would be.
At least then I would know.

I haven't really even been looking at my hair lately.
I just don't...have the energy to deal with it right now.
I really don't. I wish I could stop eating nails and just
let them grow in. They don't look horrible but I MISS my long ones.
Maybe I can make that my eating nails this week.

I'm just going through a phase right now where
I'm seriously doubting my abilities,
and I'm scared all over again that I won't be at peace.
A normal feeling for some people maybe,
but for me it's downright scary.
I just try to tell myself that God will give me the strength that I need,
that I shouldn't be afraid.
I have to just take this day by day.

I am ready to concentrate on myself again a little bit.
I gave away everything I have, and I will always do this,
but eventually Its time to start finding ME again.

What is hard is knowing that it's time for me to experience
some separation. But at the same time, I break down in tears
remembering my golden days, wishing that I could experience
it just one more time.
All my mistakes replay themselves over and over again
in my mind. It's like they won't let go.

I think I need to start focusing on more positive things.
Everything in my head seems to be negative right now.
I don't think those negative thoughts will get me very far.

But then again, sometimes I just don't know what to think.
I just pray that somehow God knows what He's doing with me.

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

Money Money


I am now a Insurance advisor and made myself busy operating in two trading account.
This finance sector is attracting me like anything these days. I think i have a crush on it this time.

Even though I dont know much about this stock market, commodities and other terrible terms of ECONOMICS but one of my friend is helping me out in my weak area.

I keep troubling him for all silly bullshit thing which i cant manipulate.. Thanks dost ! Thanks a lot infact!

Anyhow guys, now get yourself insured by me jaldi jaldi.. By the time lemme just check my portfolio at moneybhai..

Ameen. .! !